“My imagination functions much better when I don’t have to speak to people.”
― Patricia Highsmith
Whelp, it’s January 1 again.
In many years past I have come to a blog and laid out a ton of resolutions I have, and most years they’re the same – things like ‘lose X amount of weight’ and ‘go on a date’ and each year we take another trip around the sun without those things coming to pass.
So I’m just not going to resolve to do anything in particular this year except for one thing: write more.
I have a handy spreadsheet where I can track my progress for the day, whether I am writing fiction or blog posts or whatever, I can track all the words I write and see right in front of me when I’m slacking, and of course, the goal is to not break the chain.
Of course, I have horrible sleep habits and I stay up too late and night and that tends to be when I’m most productive with my writing. Go figure. I should be working on my sleep because I hear that getting a good night’s sleep is the basis of good health (which I should also work on) but no.
Screw all that, screw all those health goals, I just want to write more, every day, and make that the ONE priority that I need to check off each night before I go to sleep.
1,000 words a day is, in my opinion, a low bar to set for myself. I can do it. I’ll aim low this year so maybe by the end of it I won’t be as disappointed.
Guys, 2017 was a:
and I just don’t give a shit about as much as I used to.
Particularly, like, pretending to not be crazy at people.
I tend to spend a lot of my energy making sure people don’t realize that I’m constantly anxious and probably depressed, and if I am out in public anywhere, there’s a solid 85% chance I’d rather be at home all by myself.
And see? I hardly even talk about the thing that takes up about 80% of my brain space, which is Elise. I should do more writing about her, specifically, as part of these wordy goals.
This is the place to have the write the words and have the conversations about the things that matter, once I start making myself do it. It’ll be fun. I’ll either make friends or alienate people, but probably both, because that’s how I’ll know I’m doing it right, anyway.