I once enrolled in
ballroom dancing classes. That
did not last so long.
Years ago, at an Arthur Murray dance studio, because I met a guy in a bar who was a teacher there and he offered me some free lessons.
I can’t for the life of me remember his name now, all these years later, but he was tall, blond, and gay. I think it was Casey.
I loved moving my body and spinning to music, tapping and twisting my way around the floor, and somehow convinced John to take classes with me.
I think we lasted two classes, and as much as he said (and I thought) he enjoyed it, he bowed out – gracefully, thankfully.
It cost a lot of money. It would have been a huge commitment.
He was never very good at commitment.
Don’t permit yourself
a break. You only grow and
change with grit and faith.
You may be surprised,
but creature features are my
I’m okay with this post a day blog turning into a series of haikus.
I love haikus.
I love their immediacy and seeing how much can fit into seventeen syllables.
But, like I do, I’m thinking about starting another blog… again.
I don’t sympathize
with myself when I don’t get
a bit of work done.
I punish myself
with negative thoughts and hate
what I have become.
Moving back in with my parents last week has been incredibly hard to adjust to.
I have barely had a few moments alone besides late at night when everyone is sleeping and therefore haven’t been getting enough good sleep.
Worst thing: I have been paralyzed, feeling like I don’t have a thing to say, feeling like I am failing myself over and over again every day that I don’t reach toward my goals.
It makes me feel crazy.
How can I feel like I have nothing to say?
I have everything to say, I am just scared to say anything; I am just scared of everything.
Just start, just start, just start.
I have no sympathy for myself when the only thing that’s holding me back is me.
Words used to fall so
profusely from these tired hands,
I wish they’d come back.